Books and London Memories

I used to be a member of bookcrossing.com. Well, I still am a member but I don't really bother with it anymore. I still have books on my bookcases that were registered by bookcrossers though so this week I decided to make a huge effort to read, journal and release those remaining books. It seems only fair.

I just picked up a biography of John Lennon. I remember this being sent to me and I was so pleased. I'd been wanting to read it for a while so it was lovely that someone sent it to me. I started reading it on the train to London in March 2008 but never finished it. I was going on a weekend break with my Mum, my brothers and partners. It was Mum's main Christmas present from us and we were all so excited. We were going to see We Will Rock You, which Mum had been longing to see since she first heard about it.

Little did we know on that very rainy but incredibly wonderful weekend that just weeks later Mum would get sick and be diagnosed with cancer. That just over ten months after that fab weekend she'd be gone from our lives.

Today I picked up the John Lennon book thinking I'd finally sit down and read it. But in typical me fashion the book had postcards and notes shoved inside it, they fell out when I picked it up off the shelf. It was the postcards I'd bought in London and a note I'd started writing to remind me of what we'd done so I could make something for Mum as a memento. I'd forgotten all about it and it never got done. 

I've just spent the last half hour sobbing and now I can't read that book. It's too linked with that weekend and all the sadness of what came after.

I really, really miss you Mum.